We headed out to Red Lobster last night for dinner, as we were tired of cooking.
When Mother and I diet - oops, I mean try to eat healthfully - it takes time and effort. Fixing food from scratch involves washing, peeling, and chopping veggies and preparing meat and whatever else we have. A quick, bad dinner like pizza takes 5 minutes - just the phonecall. A decent meal takes time.
I must confess I was somewhat bad yesterday. I ate half the bowl of my taco salad. No, I wasn't chewing pottery, it was one of those bowls made of some crunchy stuff that's edible. Don't ask me what. I was hungry. At dinner, I ate about half my rice pilaf, in addition to drinking some of the yummy raspberry lemonade. I was muy thirsty. I had just pulled a bunch of weeds out of the garden and I was sweating - that's how close Red Lobster is to us - I was still sweating when I sat down. And the water tastes yucky. Those are my excuses and I'm sticking to them, anyway.
We did hang tough on one thing - both kids wanted dessert and we said NO.
I have found over my years of yo yo dieting, that one must forgive onself. I have to forgive myself or I won't be able to keep going. There are going to be days I am super good, and days I am not. But I have to keep going, and not allow the setbacks to derail my whole process.
Sort of a metaphor for everything in life, huh?!
I want my kids to see me overcome obesity. I want to show them what it looks like to change your life. I want to show them how even huge mistakes can be corrected, with patience and fortitude. I think, in a weird way, I want to show Alesia how to work around a problem, not let it ruin one's life. She has to accept her learning and memory issues and develop a "can do" attitude. Right now she doesn't have it. I so hope the therapist can help. However, maybe I can inspire her, too.
My friend Apryl with the Antares Foundation sent me a wonderful link, and I'd like to share it with you all:
Check out a project that Antares will be doing the next few weeks: http://antarespostcards.blogspot.com
(I just posted it!)
