I got up this morning a bit late, and didn't have time to eat at home, so I ate a banana while I was dressing. It actually stuck to me until I could come in and get some eggs and tea in the cafeteria. Bananas are super foods. Great source of potassium.
We told Michael yesterday we were eliminating junk food in our house, except on special occasions. He clutched a bag of Doritos as if it were a lifeline. I told him from now on, snacks are fruit, nuts, yogurt, etc. Alesia likes dried prunes, and she was munching those. We all had some green grapes after dinner.
My recent downfall was that I felt so strongly that my kids were malnourished and needed food, all kinds of food, that I failed to regulate them very well. The result is they both have little stomachs now. So Mother and I decided to de-junk the house. Alesia was a great help, but as I said, Mike is resistant. As Mother and I told them, we do NOT want y'all to grow up and be fat like us. It's best to get into healthy eating habits now, while you're young.
I am struggling, but I am trying to stay off the junk food. I am fatter now than I've ever been, and I am hating this girth. I can't keep eating and eating. Time to get a grip.
There was a day, not too long ago, when I was a LOT smaller than I am now, and I worked out every day. Yep, every day. Swimming, aerobics, raquetball, etc. I was also always on a diet so I could Catch A Man. Then I gave up the manhunt and decided to be a mama. All southern mamas tend to be a bit overweight, some downright pillowy.
Stress makes me eat. The past few years have been stressful. The only thing to do is forgive myself, and move on.
Don't ask me about my "diet." I'm not no a diet. I am trying to eat better. I don't expect lbs. to magically melt off. I won't be jumping on the scale every day obsessively. I will guage how I feel and try to modify what I eat accordingly. It's not about looking like a size 2 fashion model. It's about a weight I can live with, one that means I can stop worrying about whether my butt will fit into a chair in a public place.
I am basically just trying to not eat processed foods and/or junk foods. I'm sticking to meats, fruits, veggies, and maybe nuts and yogurt. No rice, potatoes, or pasta. No more Reese cups at teatimes. No more ice cream after dinner.
I have been a yo-yo dieter all my life. This time I have to make permanent changes. Time to grow up. Eating to live, not living to eat, that's my new philosophy.
Yet, I LOVE LOVE LOVE to eat. I am a Food Addict.
Pray for me! : )
